Everytime a song is in my head I'm gonna post it. Read it if you're bored.....

Mariah Carey---I've Been Thinking About You

We've known each other
For a long long time
But I never really noticed
All the magic in your eyes
I've been around you
A thousand times before
And you've always been a friend to me
But now I'm wanting more
I must have been so blind
I never realized
You're the one that's right for me
All the while I couldn't see
And now I feel so strange
I'll never be the same
Going 'round and 'round in circles
And I don't know what to do
'Cause baby

I've been thinking about you
In the most peculiar way

I've been thinking about you
It's unbelievable to me

But suddenly I think
I'm falling in love with you

There's no explaining how I feel inside
I'm going thru a transformation
That's so hard for me to hide
I had a revelation that
Finally opened up my eyes
The one I spent a lifetime searching for
Was right here all the time
I was oblivious so very out of touch
All the while I couldn't see
You're the one that's right for me
And now my world has changed
I'll never be the same
Going 'round and 'round in circles
And it's all because of you
Sweet baby

I've been thinking about you
In the most peculiar way
I've been thinking about you
It's unbelievable to me

But suddenly I think
I'm falling in love with you

I've been thinking about you
In the most peculiar way

I've been thinking about you
It's unbelievable to me

But suddenly I think
I'm falling in love with you

Don't you know
That you're blowing my mind
What you do to me
I can't describe
Baby I can't hold back anymore
I just can't conceal it
You're the one I really adore

I've been thinking about you
In the most peculiar way

I've been thinking about you
In the most peculiar way

I've been thinking about you
In the most peculiar way

I've been thinking about you
It's unbelievable to me
But suddenly I think
I'm falling in love with you

I've been thinking about you
In the most peculiar way
I've been thinking about you
It's unbelievable to me

But suddenly I think
I'm falling in love with you
I've been thinking about you
In the most peculiar way

I've been thinking about you
It's unbelievable to me
But suddenly I think
I'm falling in love with you

Most Poerful lyrics ever. i love her. Even if you dont just read the lyrics....

Mariah and Crayzie~~Breakdown

Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down

You called yesterday to basically say
That you care for me but that you're just not in love
Immediately I pretended to be feeling similarly
And led you to believe I was O.K.
To just walk away from the one thing
That's unyielding and sacred to me

[Chorus:]
Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry

So what do you do when somebody you're devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue
Of the pain that rejection is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride and sing "I will survive"
Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave this way"
Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away

[Chorus]

Yeah, c'mon
Yeah, c'mon, c'mon
Break break down
Gotta get control
Roll roll roll along
Steady breakin' me on down
Roll roll roll along
Break break down
Gotta get control
Roll roll roll along
Steady breakin' me on down
Roll roll along

It'll break you down
Only if you let it
Everyday crucial situation wrackin' my mind
Tryin' to break me down
But I won't let it
Forget it
Forget it

I've been feelin' like you're breakin' me down
Kickin' me around
Stressin' me out
I think I better go and get out and let me
Release some stress (stress)

Don't ever wanna feel no pain (pain)
Hoping for the sun
But it looks like rain (rain, rain, rain)
Oh, i just wanna maintain

Yeah, when you feel the pressure's on
But nevertheless
Krayzie won't fall
It's over
It's endin' here, here

[Chorus]

~*~Quiz~*~


1~ The singular most boring question: what is your name? Melissa (Mia) Diane Claire Rigby
2~ Are you happy with it? No
3~ Are you named after anyone? No...my dad was stoned when he named me
4~ Are you a prostitute? Yes, but my mom thinks i get money by working at pasquales
5~ Your screenname: Bl0ndebabigurl, UgotMeSTRIPPED, Deeper Misery, Minimariah87, VoiceWithin01, RcknRllRzrblde
6~ Would you name a child of yours after you? No
7~ Then what would you name your children? Boy: Something cool, like Nike.... Girl: Andrea Mae (and it will be)
8~ If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name be? Micheal
9~ If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? Cassandra
10~ Are there any mispronounciations/typos that people do with your name constantly? Mya..always
11~ Would you -drop your last name if you became famous? Maybe..im not sure (we'll see when I'm famous)
BASICS
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12~ Your gender: female
13~ Straight/gay/bi: bi
14~ Single? No
15~ Want to be? no
16~ Your birthdate: September 4
17~ Your age: 16
18~ Age you act: i ono
19~ Age you wish you were: 21
20~ Age you act: didnt you just ask this in number 18?
21~ The color of your eyes: Blue
22~ Happy with it? Dont matter
23~ The color of your hair: Blonde
24~ Happy with it? hell yeah
25~ Left/right/ambidextrous? Right
26~ Your living arrangement? Family
27~ Your family: Mom, stepdad, brother and sister
28~ Have any pets? Sarge!!!!!! and Whiskers
29~ What's your job: PAsquales cuz i got away from the hell of Mcdonalds
30~ Have any piercings?: % in my ears and bellybutton (ewww..infected)
31~ Tattoos?: no
32~ Obsessions?: hehehe Christina and Mariah!! ::swoon::
33~ Addictions? Espresso beans and tic-tacs
35~ Do you speak another language? Some spanish
36~ Have a favourite quote? This changes alot....
37~ Do you have a webpage? www.Play-connection.com
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DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
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38~ Do you live in the moment? rarely
39~ Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? Very
40 ~Do you have any secrets? Yeah
41~ Do you hate yourself? No
42~ Do you like your handwriting? No
43~ Do you have any bad habits? swearing
44~ What is the compliment you get most from people?: "You have beautiful eyes"
45~ If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Glitter...lol no im just kidding..it would be callled......The Next Big Thing
46~ What's your biggest fear? Needles
47~ Can you sing? Not as well as I want to
48~ Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? No
49~ Are you a loner? No
50~ What are your # 1 priorities in life? Puttin others first
51~ If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Yup
52~ Are you a daredevil? No
53~ Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? Lots, not enough time....
54~ Are you passive or aggressive? little bit o both
55~ Have you got a journal? Naw!! ::rolls eyes::
56~ What is your greatest strength and weakness? Strength: my friends Weakness: Bitchy
57~ If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? My insecurities
58~ There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity. and?
59~ How do you vent? My blog, my friends
60~ Do you think you are emotionally strong? No
61~ Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? Oh yeah!
62~ Do you think life has been good so far? It's been ok, sorta
63~ What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? Never give up
64~ What do you like the most about your body? My hair
65~ And least? my lack of boobs..lol
66~ Do you think you are good looking? uhhhhh
67~ Are you confident? Occasionally
68~ What is the fictional character you're most like: Blair Wardolf
70~ Are you perceived wrongly? Yes!
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DO YOU...
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71~ Smoke? Hell no---ewwww
72~ Do drugs? noperz
73~ Read the newspaper? No
74~ Pray?ummmm
75~ Go to church? no
76~ Talk to strangers who IM you? sometimes
77~ Sleep with stuffed animals? My Little Ponies!!
78~ Take walks in the rain? Love it!
79~ Talk to people even though you hate them? Yup
80~ Drive? no
81~ Like to drive fast? yeah.....NO!
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WOULD OR HAVE YOU EVER...
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82~ Liked your voice? Yes
83~ Hurt yourself? Yep
84~ Been out of the country? canada
85~ Eaten something that made other people sick? I dunno
88~ Been in love? Yeh
89~ Done drugs? No
90~ Gone skinny dipping? Plan on it
91~ Had a medical emergency? Yes
92~ Had a surgery? 8
93~ Ran away from home? Not yet
94~ Played strip poker? Yes....oh jeez...no questions on this please
95~ Gotten beaten up? No
96~ Beaten someone up? Yes
97~ Been picked on? Occasionally
98~ Been on stage? Yes--best feeling in the world
99~ Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath? what?
100~ Slept outdoors? Yep.
101~ Thought about suicide? Yes
102~ Pulled an all-nighter? Yep
103~ If yes, what is your record? i dunno
104~ Gone one day without food? more
105~ Talked on the phone all night? no
106~ Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex first (moms and daddys don't count)? No
107~ Slept all day? Yup
108~ Killed someone? No
109~ Made out with a stranger? hahah yes!! (im such a whore!)
110~ Had sex with a stranger? No
111~ Thought you're going crazy? Absolutely
112~ Kissed the same sex? Yes....once on accident and then on purpose
113~ Done anything sexual with the same sex? No
114~ Been betrayed? Yeah
115~ Had a dream that came true? Yes
116~ Broken the law? yes
117~ Met a famous person? yeah
120~ Have you ever killed an animal by accident? No
145~ Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? No...well nothing important
146~ Stolen anything? Yep
147~ Been on radio/tv? Yup
148~ Been in a mosh-pit? Yup
149~ Had a nervous breakdown? Yes
150~ Considered religious vocation? No
152~ Bungee jumped? No
153~ Had a dream that kept coming back? yes
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CLOTHES
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154~ Shoe brand? i dunno
153~ Brand of clothing? Forever 21
156~ Cologne/perfume? That stuff form Pac Sun
157~ What are you normally wearing to school/work? Preppy shit
158~ How about parties? slutty shit
159~ Wear hats? Only for work..but i look cute in them
160~ Judge other people by their clothing? no
161~ Wear make-up? Yeah
162~ Favourite place to shop? forever 21
163~ Favourite article of clothing? my miniskirts
164~ Are you trendy? I dunno
165~ Would you rather wear a uniform to school? With exceptions....
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BELIEFS
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166~ Believe in life on other planets? There has to be
167~ Miracles? yes
168~ Astrology? Yes
169~ Magic? Yep
170~ God? deciding
171~ Satan? i ono
172~ Santa? No
173~ Ghosts? Yes
174~ Luck? *ponders*
175~ Love at first sight? Yes
176~ Yin and Yang (that good can't exist without the bad)? Yep
177~ Witches? Yep
178~ Easter bunny? No
179~ Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? Yes
180~ Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? No--i looked ofr it once
181~ Do you wish on stars? Yep
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DEEP THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS
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182~ Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? No.
183~ Do you think God has a gender? no
184~ Do you think that science counteracts religion? Of course
185~ Do you believe in organized religion? no
186~ Where do you think we go when we die? somewhere
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AMIGOS
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187~ Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? i think i have like 2 straight friends..if that
189~ Who's the one person that knows most about you? jenny, Katie, martin
190~ What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? Let yourself fall in love...but be sure you are actually in love
191~ Your favourite inside joke? there are wayyyy to many
192~ Thing you're picked on most about? Bitch
193~ Who's your longest known friend? Natalie
194~ Newest? Harry and Linda
195~ Shyest? i dunno
196~ Funniest? Katie
197~ Sweetest? Martin, harry
198~ Closest? jenny
199~ Weirdest? Cassie
200~ Smartest? Harry
201~ Ditziest? jenny
202~ Friends you miss being close to the most? Dan, Bre
203~ Last person you talked to online? Courtney
204~ Who do you talk to most online? Martin, Linda, Katie
205~ Who are you on the phone with most? Harry
206~ Who do you trust most? Martin, Katie
207~ Who listens to your problems? Everyone
208~ Who do you fight most with? harry
209~ Who's the nicest? I dunno, theyre all great
210~ Who's the most outgoing? Katie
211~ Who's the best singer? JENNY HALE!
212~ Who's on your shit-list? never thought of it
213~ Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? imma go with martins answer.....*looks innocent*
214~ Who's your second family? Hales
215~ Do you always feel understood? Never
216~ Who's the loudest friend? Katie
217~ Do you trust others easily? No
219~ Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: there is more than one
220~ Do your friends know you? a few know who i am
221~ Friend that lives farthest away: Beau
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LOVE, and all that
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222~ Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title? no..
225~ Do you consider love a mistake? sometimes
226~ What do you find romantic? I ono
227~ Turn-on? Christina Aguilera! lol just someone who is sensitive
228~ Turn-off? Assholes
229~ First kiss? Manuel
231~ If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel? ewww
232~ Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"? knowing
233~ Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?I usually do
235~ Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? I dunno
236~ Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? prolly not
237~ What is best about the opposite sex? Fun
238~ What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? known to be assholes
245~ Do you read porn? is christina in it?
246~ Read the articles? *no answer*
247~ Just the pics? *no answer*
248~ What's the last present someone gave you? i dunno. hopefull whoever finds my ring will give it back or ill be killed
258~ Do you consider your significant other hot? yeah
264~ What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk? *stares*
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WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
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279~ That haunted you? aka stalked? that scary junior...::cringe::
280~ You wanted to kill? Kunic, and I still do
281~ That you laughed at? Martin
282~ That laughed at you? Martin
283~ That turned you on? Christi.....well you know
284~ You went shopping with? Harry
285~ That broke your heart? Dan Kidd......cuz he wont speak to me
286~ To disappoint you? I dunno
289~ To brighten up your day? Martin
290~ That you thought about? *private*
291~ You saw a movie with? Katie maybe?
292~ You talked to on the phone? cassie
293~ You talked to through IM/ICQ? Martin
294~ You saw? my whore-of-a-sister
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RIGHT THIS MOMENT...
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337~ Are you going out? Not that I know of..i wish
338~ Will it be with your significant other? Im not going anywhere
339~ Or some random person? GRRR!!!!
340~ What are you wearing right now? my play shirt and blue jeans
341~ Body-part you're touching right now: thats a dirrty question..im actually touching the pizza im eating
342~ What are you worried about right now? Report Cards
343~ What book are you reading? Gossip Girl 5
345~ Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: Tired, confused, secretive, hungry...and ummm i dono
346~ Are you bored? Yes
347~ Are you tired? Did I not just tell you that?!?
348~ Are you talking to anyone online? yes
349~ Are you talking to anyone on the phone? No
350~ Are you lonely or content? Lil bit o both
351~ Are you listening to music? always

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::empty space::

By the way---harry is moving to Boardman. He thinks nothing is gonna chnage, but its gonna suck. I hate this. This makes me like, 10,000 times more scared. That and the fact that we keep getting into little arguemnets constantly. and i'm really sick of them. God damnit!! Yeah....Mia

In no particular order I want these people to know I love them!!! Jenny Martin Harry Katie Dan Aubrey Cassie Linda More to be added.....

Wow.  I hate everything.  I made sp many mistakes recently and they are all comign back.  Like, telling Harry about my sexuality.  Im comfortable with it, but other peoples reactions piss me off.  Liek his whiole deal...yes....i kissed katie desko and jenny hale....no that does not classify as cheating because they are my friends!  But we realized all of Nathans ex-girlfriends are Bi or Lesbian.  Stupid cunt!  I have alot more to write but i dont feel like it...in general-=---I miss Aubrey and Dan.  and i have another secret I've been holding back and ignoring that has decided to surface again but I cant let it slip to anyone.....oh god......~~Mia

A few things everyone should know not to do to me....

1.  Don.t call me a liar.  Even if your joking.
2.  Don.t use the words fag or gay or anything related.  Gay is acceptible if you are specifying a sexual preference.
3.  Don.t tell me i.m pissed or mad, if i am, i will know that.
4.  Don.t point out I.m a bitch over and over.  I know, I.m workign on it.  Help me here.
5.  Don.t tell me I.ll never be famous.  Cuz when i am, i will have my bodyguards kick your ass.
6.  Don.t insult my musical prefernces.  I know they are unique.

7.  Don.t toy with my emotions, bad idea.
8.  Don.t act immature around me.

9.  Don.t use or play me.  As a friend or whatever, don.t do it.
10.  I have said this a few ways, but basically, don.t tell me who I am.  You probably don.t even know me.  Few people know the real me.  I think only one person really knows me. 

There are things about me I.m not even sure about.  But I know who I am, and while there are flaws i.m going to fix, I.m happy with who that person is.  If you arn.t, why the hell are you reading my journal or wasting your time on me?

One more thing, addressed to Harry personally......

I love you so much.  I appreciate everything you.ve done for me more than you can imagine.  I think maybe part of the reason I seem so far off lately is because I don.t wanna let myself get attached again.  I guess I don.t wanna get hurt.  I know you would never intentionally hurt me, but I think I.m just...scared.  But I realize being and acting the way I have been isn.t helping at all.  I.m in love with you and I cant help that.  I dunno, Im sorry and I apologize for everything. 

~~Mia

People have been asking me if I'm mad at Harry because of the last entry.   NO!  I LOVE HIM and it would take a hell of alot more than that to get me upset.  Im babaysitting right now and it sucks.  I was gonna make a big entry, but i decided i will later.  Bye!! ~~Mia

I Love Harry Ho!!  (haha)