Dedicated to someone who dont even know I keep a journal, and prolyl doesnt even rember my screenname.  Damn.....wtf is the point?  Oh wellz....

Love Makes The World Go round --- Ashlee Simpson

Here
Here I am again
And i'm starin at these same four walls, alone again
and now all the color's bland
and i'm growing now
and i've become this empty page
Hold on, it's tragic
stumblin thru all this static

I just wanna talk to you
my broken heart just has no use
I, I guess promises are better left unsaid
yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
say the words that I'm the only
that i'm the one who's crawlin on the ground
when you say love makes the world go round

my love,
look at what you've done to me
for someone who has felt so strong
it's amazing i'm completely gone
hold on it's tragic
stumblin thru all this static

I just wanna talk to you
my broken heart just has no use
I, I guess promises are better left unsaid
yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
say the words that i'm the only
that i'm the one who's crawlin on the ground
when you say love makes the world go round

if that's the kind of love you'll give me
i'd rather be alone, believe me
is that the way you thought you'd treat me
I'd rather walk away

I just wanna talk to you
my broken heart just has no use
I, I guess promises are better left unsaid
yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
say the words that i'm the only
that i'm the one who's crawlin on the ground
u said love makes the world go round
yeah
u said love makes the world go round

Everytime you try to tell me
I don't care you're not the only
don't ya know I'm comin back around
cuz i say love makes the world go round
yeah
cuz i say love make the world go round

Not my Biography, Just a Key to my Mind, Thoughts, and Feelings. My name is Mia Rigby, I am 17 years old, and I am an aspiring singer. No, it’s more than that. I’m an aspiring performer. My biggest influences are Mariah Carey, Christina Aguilera, Play, Avril Lavigne, Hanson, and JoJo. I WILL BECOME…The Next Big Thing. All of my life, I had been told to shut up, and to stop singing. I would be told I wasn’t any good, or that’d I’d never be a singer. When I requested voice lessons, I was told that the money wasn’t worth it, because I would become nothing. Throughout the next 12 or so years, music had remained important to me. It was an escape, it could solve any problem, and it was the only way I felt comfortable expressing myself. I had been through so much, death, love, hate, depression, and I always made it through my problems because of music. Despite what my family and others told me, I held onto my dreams. I’d watch my idols on TV and hear them tell me never to give up. It felt as if they were speaking to me personally, so I held on. My first year in high school I met my best friend, Jenny Hale. Jenny was in a singing group called Never True, and they were looking for a new member. I jumped at the chance. We did a couple performances and it felt so right. The feeling of being up on stage was amazing. After one performance someone came up to me and told me they believed in us, that one day we’d become something. That felt amazing. Never True went through so many members, and break-ups, and after the final one, I decided I wasn’t giving up. Last Year I saw Mariah Carey in concert. I realized how badly I want people screaming my name, looking up at me as an inspiration. I want to share my love of music with other people. I went to a Play concert that same year, got up to the front row. I watched those girls, and I wanted to be one of them so bad. People were reaching up to grab their hand, and singing along to the songs that they sang. That has to be…indescribable. I’ve never felt like I belonged anywhere. Never knew what I wanted to do when I got out of school, so I just went with what my mother wanted for me. Let her pick out my dreams. But I always kept mine close to my heart. This is all I want to do with my life, and I am prepared to do anything necessary to succeed. I’ve jumped from prep, to punk, to pop, to anything else you can imagine. And I’ve never felt like I fit in. I’m unique, have my own way of seeing things. I need some way to express that and have people understand and appreciate me for who I am. and music is just that. I just need a lot of support, and a little help. Thanks for reading, My biography is also included, along with a short demo and some pictures. Thanks, ~~Mia

BOLD all the ones that apply to you.

01. I have a cell phone.
02. I'm obsessed with high heels.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am a shopoholic.
05. I love hoop earrings.
06. I am a libra.
07. I love beer.
08. I have more then a couple of horrible memories.
09. I can't live without lip gloss.
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in Purgatory for 3 months
12. I spend money I don't have.
13. I'll be in college forever.
14. I've seen Jason Mraz.
15. I accedently deleted what went here....
16. I eventually want kids.
19. I am addicted to Lizzie McGuire.
20. I am a person. (this must be directed at the dogs who take this quiz)
21. My first kiss was when I was 18.
22. I start film school in February.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. My dreams are bizarre.
27. One of my close friends is gay.
28. I have way too many purses.
29. I've seen 'Fight Club' at least 45 times.
30. I usually dress how I feel that day
31. I love 'Sex and the City'.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. I love winter.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I were smarter.
39. I'm afraid of flying.
40. I hate drama.
41. I am addicted to 'The O.C.'
42. I love my hair.
43. I never fight with my parents.
44. I love the beach.
45. I have never had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.
47. I can't control my emotions.
48. I can't wait till New Year's.
49. I love the show 'Rich Girls'
50. I love my friends. <---Sometimes....~Mia
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure sometimes.
53. I have never broken a bone.
54. I hate racist people
55. I hate my computer.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I love to dance.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous very easily.
63. I love cute underwear.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I cry when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused.
66. I WANT TO GO TO GREECE.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I love God.
69. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a horrible sense of direction.
71. I love(d) high school.
72. I have a talent of sweet-talking my way out of things.
73. I'm a daddy's girl.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color pink.
76. I love to sew.
77. I have green eyes.
78. I love the Olsen Twins.
79. I played soccer for 14 years.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I hate liars.  OMG!! 
82. I like comfy sweatpants.
83. Paul Walker is my dream guy.
84. I love the smell of asphalt after it's rained.
85. I love my family.
86. I hate needles.
87. I am a perfectionist
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
90. I am still a virgin.
91. I would love to have my own fashion line.
92. I can be quite selfish.
93. I still act like a little kid.
94. I don't like dishonesty
95. I love pictures.
96. I love music
97. I wish I were more motivated when it comes to school.
98. I love getting stuff in the mail.
99. I have problems letting go of people.
100. I hate the feeling of being alone

Wow---there was alot on that!

Yeah.  so yesterday I went to Soak City at Cedar Point with Harry and Katie.  It was so much fun.  But i started thinking bout alot of things.  I dunno, I love Katie to death and all but my relationship with Harry has kinda become a 3 way thing.  Only its not.  I dunno, If I hang all over Katie whatever.  Just like if harry was to hang all over Eric.  But If i was hanging on Eric the way he did with Katie he would be pissed at me.  Im a tolerant person but honestly That was a little much.  He asked me if it bothered me and i simply said "not to an extent."  Well that was wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy  past the extent.  I dunno.  It got me thinking bout alot of things too.  And i Know that Harry isnt completely over Cassie.  How could he be?  I expect that though.  That dont bother me.  And i know Katie likes Harry, Its hard not to.  The only thing that bothers me about that is...well i dunno.  anyways, on another note.  i went over Dans today.  i got up this morning and the first thing i did was write him a long note.  I figured if he wont talk to me maybe hged read it.  But hes on vacation until Friday.  I'll talk to him later this week though.  Ughhhh..I dont even know what's going on anymore.  ....~~Mia

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Yesterday I cried myself asleep again. Harry thinks I dont care abouthim. I don't understand why either. What have I done to make him think that way? He seems to think that If i dont wanna spend every secong of my day with him, then i dont love him. That annoys the hell outof me. I want to spend time with my friends, I want to spend time to myself. I have so much on my mind right now and he doesnt know the half of it!! If I didnt love him i wouldnt have risked 2 of the best friendships I've ver had. I have never done that for a guy before! I always told myself I wouldnt let a guy come between me and friends, and I lost one of em. Ughhhhhh...I guess what i do do for him isnt enough. I try to spend time with him, i appreciate everything he does for me....i just....maybe too much time together can be bad. I've been there before and I dont want the same outcome. Oh yeah, and Harry, before you ask....thats clingyness. Not wanting to hold hands or cudlle or whatever, wanting to be with me every second. So, i guess you are kinda clingy.

Linda--- I know what you are going through. I've been there. Circumstances were a little different but not much. Hopefully, you dont lose Nicks friendship in the end. I hope you dont go thorugh as much pain as I did. If you need ANYTHING call me. me and u are gonna have to do sumthing one day, just the two of us, maybe KT. So we can talk.

Katie-- I love you girl! Thanks for being there for me thorugh everything. I think I need someone to confide in. and I'm leaving that up to you now.

Dan--I dont know if you will really read my journal...but if you do i want you to know some things. Even if they are repetitive. I never wanted to hurt you, and I'm sorry that I did. You were one of the best friends I ever had, and i miss you so much. Oh damn, lol here i go crying again. I hurt too, I dont think you understand how much. I miss goign on walk, and the laughter, lol and even the annoying way you say "meeeiiiaaa" heh But I'm happy now, well I tihnk I am. Even if Harry seems to be annoyed with me right now.

Katie and Harry--- I broke a promise to you both. Not saying anything else.

I have so much more to say but I'm not going to. I wanna stop crying, stop being depressed, I wanna be forgivin for the hurt I've caused all of you. I wanna take away Linda's pain. I wanna follow my dreams. I want to spend time with the old friends who are drifting away. I wanna talk to Aubrey, Dan, Jenny, and Martin. But even with all the drive i have, I cant do any of it.

"I can't pretend these tears
Aren't over flowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me " --MC

 

~~Mia

totally too lazy to use br tags...oh well u'll all live

State of sexuality: bi *Most loved bodily functions: the way my hair bounces? *Most hated bodily functions: im clumsy?? *Sleep position: curled up *One place you gotta go before you die: europe somewhere *If you were a zillionaire and could blow your money on one really exorbitantly useless and shameless object, what would it be: Mariah Carey things...lol *If you were dirt poor, what would be your last ditch desperate attempt at money: steal it *What are you guilty of: lots *What are you proud of: my uniqueness *What do you think of children (no cannibalism jokes allowed): annoying...but cute *For/against animal testing: Against *Did you ever have a monster in the closet/under the bed: nope *Movie that scared you the most when you were a kid: i ono *Something about adulthood that mystifies you: not sure...oddd questions in this quiz! a compliment you've always been afraid to give: *no comment* *Friend who is a wild child: KT *Friend who was your anchor: martin, harry, courtney, jenny *Friend who you wish was something more: ....... *Friend who is almost your enemy: jenny at times...lol *Friend who is just weird: KT *Someone you wish was your friend: Christina Aguilera *If you could fly, what would you do: fly..... *Natural disaster you fear most: volcano *Natural disaster you want to experience: earthquake? *Why were there more male beat poets than women: what the fudge? *What disease/infirmity would make you want to kill yourself: AIDS, *What body part that you dislike do you wish was worshiped: ass *Would you be the bride/groom in a shotgun wedding: i wouldnt wanna have a shotgun wedding. those are so mean and rude and not cool... *What alien superpower are you glad you don't have: Anal-probing. i wonder if thats even a superpower. but think about it, i really dont wanna shove mechanical devices in ppl's asses. u dont know what has been up there.... CURRENT JOB: pizza girl and ice cream scooper FUTURE JOB: entertainer RIGHTY, LEFTY OR AMBIDEXTROUS: righty DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS OR GLASSES: contacts PETS: kitty! CAR YOU (WANT TO) DRIVE: drive a saturn, want a sunfire *******************FAVORITES*********************** TYPES OF MUSIC: hahahah BAND/ARTIST: mariah, christina SONG TODAY: all downhill from here CD: Mariah Carey--Music Box GAME: nothingFOODS: Lots. VEGETABLE: uhhh...cucumber?. FRUIT: anything ICE CREAM: cookie dough (pasquales) CANDY: i ono NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Virgin margarita (i wont quote britney or id shoot myself...Linda might die too...) ALCOHOLIC DRINK: ??? margarita!! lol MOVIES: Coyote Ugly TV SHOW: dont watch tv CARTOON: dont watch cartoons DAY OF THE WEEK: friday FLOWER: daffodil and sunflower GEMSTONE: pink sapphire HOLIDAY: hmmmm..... JEWELRY: charmbracelets SEASON: Spring ANIMAL: butterfly PLACE TO VISIT: Malls THING TO WEAR: sluuty punkish stuff SPORT TO WATCH: I hate to watch any sport. PHRASE: i ono JOKE: Blonde ones make me laugh the most. SLOW/FAST DANCING: Slow. DAY/NIGHT: night DISNEY/WARNER BROTHERS: Disney FLOWERS/CANDY/POETRY: flowers KISSING/HUGGING: cuddling PIE/CAKE: cake SMILING/LAUGHING: dont u kinda smile when u laugh? laughing's better cuz u lose weight at the same time. PEN/PENCIL: Pencil POOL/HOT TUB: Pool TV/RADIO: radio MOVIE THEATRE/RENT MOVIES: both ******************HAVE YOU EVER****************** BROKEN THE LAW: sure.... HAD STITCHES: nope BROKEN A BONE: No PLAYED STRIP POKER?: yep MOONED SOMEONE IN PUBLIC: Nope. FROM THE DAMNED WINDOW: No. BEEN ON A BLIND DATE: almost---but cancelled it COME CLOSE TO DYING: yep BEEN DRUNK: yep FLASHED SOMEONE?: nope